Back to Step One: Friends

Being in a completely new country, you have no foundation for friends, familiarity, places you can run to. School is out and everyone is moving on to their own direction; friends disperse to the north, west and south. That brings me back to step one: find friends. Not just acquaintances, but friends whom you feel your most comfortable with and can call upon without a second's thought.

Yesterday was a day-off from work. Woke up, overslept. And I walked around the unit thinking what should I do today. Started to think of people I can call upon to hang out with...

Let's call her. Nah, she's probably working today.
What about her? She's too far, she can't come down.
And him? He's a creep.
Then....
The list stops.

I realized that there were only a hand full of people I comfortable call my friends, and a small group whom I call true friends. And with these people leaving to start their careers, it seems like the world became a little bit bleaker and lonelier.

Frustrating when you have all these things you want to do, but have no one to do it with.

I was itching the whole week to go clubbing last night. Didn't happen. Why? No one to go with.
Instead, I walked around the city on my own. Bought some things that weren't deadly important but needed nonetheless. The city seemed a lonelier place than it was a couple of days ago, when I was surrounded with my family.

So step one.
It is in my new years resolution to join groups or clubs and what not to achieve this, but... Can't do at the moment. No money to join such things. So just going to tough it out for a bit. And wait.

Back to step one...