Relationship Status

Warning: Following text contains pathetic ramblings about 'love' (shallow and cliche)

Current Love Situation : Nil

I think one of th reasons why I feel so 'down-and-blue' is how comfortable I was with my social network in my home country that coming here I'm left with two (brother and his girlfriend).

I've been 'spoiled', knowing that I had people to fall on when I was having a bad day, someone to text or call when I needed to just grab a cup of jo somewhere and laugh my ass off.

One of those people, of course, was my boyfriend. Ex-boyfriend, rather.

My relationship with my boyfriend of 2 years ended the instant I stepped unto the plane to come to this new country. He was my first boyfriend. We learned and grow into these some-what mature and better people. We started to completely understand each other without speaking, knowing the routines of one another; everything had its place and it all flowed like a river's water.

Of course, we had our ups-and-downs and definitely, I've screwed up A LOT. BIG TIME. But despite of that, he still loved me more than I could ever expect out of another person.

I'm far from perfect. I have an attitude that pops out once in awhile. I'm picky. Fickle. And etc...

Now, we barely talk because we're both too busy and our schedules never seem to collide anymore. We did in the beginning, but it gradually just stopped...

I've got a couple of 'eye-candies', yes. All I can think of is that, it'll only be up to that point. Only.
You can say I'm the type of girl who doesn't believe at all that she's what any guy would want. Low self-esteem when it comes to that. (Pathetic, isn't it?)

I've done stupid things in the past that my ex has accepted (unexpected, totally blew me away and touched my soul), and even finding someone who would accept that as well, would be a total miracle as well.

Relationship, all forms of it, is what I think I need now. A stable one. Or at least one that I feel I connect to.

So. Conclusion. Look for friends. Or if not. Actually make time to GO OUT with friends. That sounds better.

That's it.