Next Step: Employers

On Tuesday, I rushed up to the second floor to drop in my resume to apply for the Graduate Nurse Program I knew the hospital was offering, but turns out that I missed the deadline by 3 to 4 days. I missed the deadline for the applications for government hospitals (as they were all done at one time under one system), and the end of the program was coming to an end.

I directly went into panic mode. No exaggeration.

Rode the first bus to head to my friend’s place, used his phone and laptop to look up the full list of private hospitals from the government website and called all of the hospitals with a 50 to 100 bed capacity. Almost every single one put me down. Left some messages on some, but when the second or third callback came to give me a negative, I couldn’t help it. I broke down on my friend’s couch. None of my friends have ever seen me cry (only some my workmates at the restaurant during Mother’s day). It was a complete down low.

Finding a sponsor is my only option to stay here and it wasn’t an option to fail. My friend soothed me and told me to keep trying. I picked myself up and told him we were going to drop by the church.

I haven’t had the chance to go as often as I liked, but on that day, it was truly what I needed.  Faith and belief are great tools in times of doubt and uncertainties.

We spent almost half an hour in the church. I lit a candle for my problems with sponsorship and another for my family and friends; sat down in one of the pews and just prayed and talked and reflected upon what I needed to do.  It is amazing what a little in-depth prayer can do for you. I felt a bit of clarity, and was reminded of an important fact I often have trouble remembering:

“Everything happens for a reason for God has a great plan for us, whether we see what is to come or not…”

I cannot control all things in my life but I can do my best in everything.

There’s a special little quote on my wall that I have failed to read over the past weeks due to busy schedules, stress and a bit of depression. I’m pretty sure I’ve posted it in my blog a couple of times but it never fails to push me on. It goes like this:

“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe…” ~ Gail Devers

Thank you, God…