Words

After reading a best friend’s blog about how words can change the world (alright, exaggerating, she meant more than that but that’s what I’m getting out for this post), I went off to a blog of an author, his words never failed to inspire me: Paulo Coelho. There were all these amazing quotes and I stumbled upon one that suited my current situation perfectly:

“Don't allow your wounds to turn you into a person you are not.”

(retrieved via google.com.au)

The night before I was talking to my brother about how I was changing, and I didn’t like the person I was becoming. I was easily bitter, complaining and saying bad things in my head over simple matters that would usually not bother me before. He explained, in the stern voice he always used in such conversation, that the change is inevitable. To survive here and to survive at all, I couldn’t continue to have the “C--- (name of home island) attitude”, where it was laid back, life was easy and good, and not a full-on hard work to be done. I agreed, of course. I was here for the good, and all good things never come easy. I knew I would have to suffer to get to the best, but I did not realize I would have to lose myself. I sat on the edge of my bed, contemplating this and decided, I would change, yes, but not into a person I don’t want to be. Change for the better, for whatever skill or attitude would help me survive these times, but not into a bitter or negative person who lacks the care and warmth of my old self.

I’ve decided to start by simply picking up old habits: reading a novel again. I’ve said before that I’ve missed the simple things in life and it doesn’t get as simple as reading a novel, and I was a huge book worm growing up. Picking it back up now might not be a bad thing. It’ll serve as a distraction and means to relieve some stress and provide some relaxation. PJ said in passing about signing up for the library a couple of days back, and that’s exactly what I did. Money aspect of doing something for myself: solved! I’m slowly putting myself together, and getting to know myself more again. It’s very small and very slow, but I’m think I like the feeling.

(retrieved via google.com.au)

On today’s “God wants you to know” app was perfectly beautiful as well, as it reflected exactly what I needed to hear after having this huge fear about my limitations and weaknesses, as my first interview for a prospective job comes up:

“... that God sees you as you truly are, - a holy child of light: I see you strong and whole. I see you blessed and prospered. I see you courageous and confident. I see you capable and successful. I see you free from all limitations or bondage of any kind. I see you as the spiritually perfect being you truly are.”

It was perfect. This was what I needed to put myself up again. And with these words, I will go in the interview tomorrow and know that I am who I am and capable. I am capable.

Positive words. Positive thinking.
I will survive this. I am surviving this.


P.S.
Check out my friend's blog, she's a darling and talented writer. Enjoy.
(http://joaniewoanie.blogspot.com/)